Jingle Bells (© Biswapriya Purkayastha)
Page 3 "And then one time he was watching a TV programme where
Santa was coming down the chimney – you know, one of those kid’s flicks – and
he began hyperventilating and screaming something about the chimney. I had to
shut off the TV. Most of the time he’s pretty good about the TV though. He’s
much more scared of real-life Santas." "You have a chimney?" "All the old houses in this town have chimneys. Not that
they are used, most of them. Mine isn’t." "Is your son scared of the chimney?" "He hasn’t mentioned it since. But I don’t know what he
thinks inside his head." "And before this his mother had been killed, last December?
What happened there?" "I don’t know the details. Some psycho entered the house at
night and slaughtered her, a couple of days before Christmas. Left her just
about turned inside out. The neighbour found her the next morning. He, Davey,
was still sleeping." "Um. It must have been traumatic. Maybe he associated Santa
with his mother’s death. It happens sometimes." "So what’s the way forward?" "You can’t possibly take him to a country where there is no
Santa till Christmas is over? Saudi Arabia or somewhere like that?" The
psychiatrist answered himself. "I guess not. Look, Sean, I’d like you to bring
him to me tomorrow. Come early and you can stay the night. I’ll observe him." "All right." He could adjust his time. He still had no
regular job and the pension was still paying the bills. "I’ll be coming." In
the car, taken out after so long, driving carefully not only because of the
snow but because his right foot was fake and could so easily slip off the
accelerator – or press down hard. He’d see. Christmas traffic. Snow and ice. A
metal foot. A kid who was a shivering neurotic and who more probably than not
looked on him – his dad – as his jailer. What a mess. He looked in on the boy in his room. He was sleeping, the
night light on, his thumb in his mouth. He looked at the boy and then he went
to bed. He woke in the middle of a dream, one of those dreams that
were so real that they were not distinguishable from reality, only this had not
been a dream once. He had been riding shotgun at the head of the convoy,
scanning the brown dusty hills on either side for the enemy, the driver in the
right hand seat hunched forward over the wheel, studying the road for signs of
a buried mine, and still going as fast as he could. It had been a very quiet
day apart from the noise of engines. They had not even seen the occasional
farmer in turban or Afghan pakol. And that was strange, but he had
shrugged off the strangeness, because he was going on leave at the end of this
trip. He could almost taste the beer. Then it was that the Taliban had sprung their ambush and the
first RPG had slammed into the door on the driver’s side, smashed through and
exploded, reducing the driver to chunks of bloody flesh and apart from a brief
confused moment of blood and pain he had known nothing more until he had woken
up in the hospital. It was the same in the dream, only he had been in the
shotgun seat, knowing the ambush was coming, anticipating it, but unable to do
anything about it, waiting for the tongue of flame and the explosion, the
thread of tension stretching until it had to break – but it did not. He snapped
awake. Dimly, he realised that the darkness was much greater than
it should have been, and it was colder. The lights from the street were still
entering through the top of the high window, but the little glow from the
thermostat was off. He reached out for the table lamp. As he expected, the
lights were out. Damn. If there was a blown fuse in the mains, he’d better do
something about it before they all froze. And if the boy woke and found himself
in the dark, he’d start screaming the house down. If there was any way he could
get the lights working, he’d better get on with it. He took the torch from the bedside drawer by touch and
turned it on. The light was fitful and dim – worn out batteries. But there was
enough to see by. He moved quietly to the door, shuffling in house slippers,
and moved downstairs to the living room. On the way he paused outside his son’s
door. The door was slightly ajar so he closed it. There was no sound from
inside. The boy hadn’t woken yet. [ Continue to page 4 ] |